My Everyday Story

 Hai, D..  Now i know the answer of your question "kamu nyari apa lewat pacaran?" I have my answer now D.. it's because i want to be understanded, loved, and being babied by someone elses. Now i know that after i lost my hope on you.  I know we still talk via text, but you know what? Im no longer expect anything from you, i even think about move on by looking for someone else. I dont think i can leave you with no one to replace you with. I know it sounds so rude to you or anyone reading this, but its a harsh truth we need to realize. You know that i love yapping a lot, for couple of these days, you replace my daily routine person. But now you seems not exciting no more. I feel not really like it.  D, you know im on my last year of university, you know that everyone keep making a wedding arrangement for me.  But, i keep on my plan, 25 years old gonna be my fresh start of marriage life. That age gonna be my fresh new start to thinking about married life.  Wel...

 I'm so tired that i always have to understand you all the time... That's okay if you dont want me, but can you please just leave me alone? I'm so done with you D, today is 6th April, 2026 i decided to let you go completely. I wont chasing you anymore. Go get your life together, im really done this time. I have no more power to stay by your side.  I dont understand you anymore. Just let me leave.  You just like my toxic ex that keep me around just to satisfied your ego. Im not doing it bro.  I will get my life together, just like i used to. I wont stalk or even think about you anymore. My life already miserable, dont ruin it.  I know im not a perfect person for you, i guess you already know it and can feel that im not a wife material that you are looking for. Maybe its a God's plan to keep you away from someone like me. I hope you find your true love D.  Im done loving you..  I hope the best for your life, thank you for coloring my life and make me rea...

 After all this time all i think about is how unwanted i am for him Literaly, all i think about is like, he dont want me all this time, right? Why do i keep chasing him Also, i dont really feel like i deserve such a good person like everyone i met, him Aku ngerasa kek, ga pantes aja sih, ya ga sih? I think if my husband dont act like i was, i dont feel like he deserve someone like me, he could have someone better than me, right? Berlaku dengan this one guy, he can have someone better than me.  I think sekarang aku kek, temenan aja ga sih? He deserve so much better sih... Aku bulan 10 ini udah lulus kuliah dan  bakal menghadapi dunia kerja dan keliling Indonesia with everything that i have, right? Yah, aku emang dari dulu ga berencana nikah juga sih ya, i was planned to k1ll my self either hehe, well maybe i will enjoy yang next 10 years and end my life with so much joy and ga nyusahin orang tua aku aja sih? Well, what do you think about this my life plan?  Tapi, kasi...